Living in a world where it's considered a bad thing to fall in love, i'm not sure I even know what love is. I guess love is what we call it when you simply can not do without someone. I don't know if I have ever been in love. I think it's easier to love when you know the other person loves you back. I think we tend to settle as humans. I think we tend to do what is easy. I don't believe that every single person in the world has only one person in the world that they could end up with. I believe that every single person in the world could end up falling in love and marrying a million different people based off where, when, and who. I believe that I might have already met the man i'm going to marry in the future. I don't, however, believe it is only one person. I have probably met many people that, depending on circumstance and timing, I could end up marrying in the future. I think love has a lot to do with convenience. When you are a 19 year old college student with two jobs, it's kind of difficult to meet someone and think about having a relationship with them when you don't have time for a relationship with them. Think about it. Think about someone you met in the past or maybe even recently. This person must be someone that you had feelings for. Someone that you, at one point or another, needed in your life to be happy. Now think about how and why it ended. Did someone want more than the other person? Did someone mess up and kiss someone else? Did someone meet someone else and end up with that person? Those situations and the reason that relationship ended was all due to circumstance and timing. Now imagine meeting that same person at your workplace at the age of 25 with a career and your own apartment. Do you see things going differently?
19 is quite an age. We are all so eager to party and do the things we aren't supposed to. We laugh at our mistakes and regret the things we do when we drink and fuck up. But it's all part of college, right? Dating around and being free is the thing nowadays, right? But at 25, our desires may not be the same. We all won't find drinking as exciting after we turn 21 because the intriguing factor will be gone. The fact that we aren't allowed to drink makes it seem that much more fun. Partying and chatting up the people we find attractive are things we live for at this age. At 25 and 30 who knows what we will live for? I'm sure we won't be living for the same things we are now. Someone you've known your entire life might take an interest in you in ten years. Why? Timing and circumstance. I'm not sure if I believe in fate or destiny. I think I believe in coincidence. I believe in accidents and I believe that you create your own plan. I think we all have a time and place where we will grow up and realize we don't want to be immature anymore. I believe we all hit a point where we end up wanting to be with one person. I think it has nothing to do with that person though. It has everything to do with the timing. I experienced this firsthand with my recent ex-boyfriend. We dated for two years. When you lose someone you go through your head trying to pinpoint the exact moment you lost them. We both made mistakes but the mistakes we made had everything to do with the situations we were in. We were both in situations where we didn't have much time for each other. I think things would have gone very differently for us if we had met after we both graduated from college. I think things might have gone smoother if I had met him in the future. I believe that I could have married this man if I had only met him 10 years later when we are both mature and stable. Love isn't enough when it comes to terms with circumstance. Circumstance can be a cruel bitch when it comes to love. It's easier to love someone when it is convenient. Love doesn't have anything to do with love. Love has everything to do with doing what us humans do best and taking the easiest option
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